not quite ready

ok, so I deleted my 'misunderstanding' blog, because it was sort of bullshit, and that's all what diarys are really, just full of crap, but this time, I am going to be real. I may say I am not ready for a relationship, but I can't say that, cause well, when am I really going to know? I can't just decide then go find someone...whatever comes comes really, should really live by that. I suppose it's maybe cause I am afraid...